Being a father for a little over a year now, I have found that it is difficult to be present all the time with my family. I think that before having kids, it was a little easier to come home after work and spend time wth Kat. We would eat dinner and watch a movie or a television show together. As I am writing this, maybe in some ways we both were not present as much as we should have been.
However, I know that with kids I have a whole new understanding of trying to be present. I leave in the morning and return in the evening after working all day. To be honest God, I do not have the most physically challenging job but many days when I return home, I am emotionally exhausted but the moment I come in the door and here the words, "Papa's home," I know that I must be present with my children and my wife. However, I know God that I need your help to be the Papa and the husband that I want to be to my for my family.
I think that being present with my kids begins my being present with You. I know that being present with You is not the easiet either. So many times, I have found that we are easily distracted. Radios,cell-phones, computers, I-Pads, cars, television shows, internet, Facebook, and noise are just a few of the distractions that we face on an everyday basis.
I was reminded of a story of a 17th-Century monk named Brother Lawrence. He did not have any prestigious titles or big important job. Brother Lawrence was a dish washer. During his life, he was able to experience you through everything that he did no matter how mundane. God, I need your help. I want to experience you at a deeper level in everything that I do whether it is talking with a difficult person, playing with my kids or even washing dishes. God, not only do I want to be present with my wife and kids but I want Your Presence in my life all of the time.
Brother Lawrence said, " "Nor is it needful that we should have great things to do. . . We can do little things for God; I turn the cake that is frying on the pan for love of him, and that done, if there is nothing else to call me, I prostrate myself in worship before him, who has given me grace to work; afterwards I rise happier than a king. It is enough for me to pick up but a straw from the ground for the love of God."
Thanks for listening God,